Könnte ich - If only i could - Maxim

If only i could bury those dreams,
bury allthe plans
If only i could tame my desires
and paralyze my world!
If only i could bend myself
if only i could force myself,
to end this chapter
just like that, right in the middle
If only i could forget who i am
If only i could drift myself
watch how the dreams withdraw.
Just accenpt it,
stop struggling against all this shit
bury the memories in a drawer
and accept that im living in an illusion, i try to catch the stars
Everytime i think about it, the anxiety grows
because i have come too far for this
everytime i think about it, the anxiety grows
because i have come too far for this
If only i could step in front of an assembly line, for counting the hours
after cudgeling my mind day after day
If only i could hush, and act like everything is okay
after i've written my fingers sorem out of hatred for this sick planet!
But for this, it is already too late!
If only i could find peace for the soul and the heart,
i called upon the soirits, now they are here and wont let me free
If only i could come further,
if i'd knew i dont do it my way.
If only i could just forget
that a part of me is missing.
Everytime i think about it, the anxiety grows
because i have come too far for this
everytime i think about it, the anxiety grows
because i have come too far for this
Everytime i think about it, the anxiety grows
because i have come too far for this
everytime i think about it, the anxiety grows
because i have come too far for this



Könnte ich alle die Träume wieder vergraben,
all die Pläne wieder verschaben
Mein Verlangen wieder zähmen,
meine Welt wieder lähmen
Könnte ich mich wieder verbiegen
Könnte ich mich jetzt noch zwingen,
dieses Kapitel abzuschließen
einfach so, mittendrinn
Könnte ich jetz noch vergessen wer ich bin
Könnte ich mich treiben lassen,
zusehen wie mein Ziel sich entfernt
Es einfach akzeptieren,
aufhören mich gegen all den Scheiß zu wehren
all die Erinnerungen ein für alle mal in eine Schublade stellen
und mir eingestehen du lebst in einer Illusion, greifst nach den Sternen
und immer wenn ich daran denk, packt mich die Angst,
denn dafür bin ich schon viel zu weit gegangen
und immer wenn ich daran denk, packt mich die Angst,
denn dafür bin ich schon viel zu weit gegangen
Könnte ich mich jetzt noch vor ein Fließband stellen, um die Stunden zu zählen,
nachdem ich mir den Kopf zermater Tag für Tag
Könnte ich wieder schweigen, so tun als wäre alles okay
nachdem ich mir die Finger wund geschrieben hab, aus Wut auf diesen kranken Planet
es is dafür längst zu spät
Könnte ich noch Ruhe finden für Seele und Herz,
ich hab die Geister geweckt, nun sind sie da und geben mich nich wieder her
Könnte ich noch vorwärts kommen,
wenn ich wüsste ich geh nich mal meinen Weg
Könnte ich irgendwann einmal vergessn,
dass ein Teil von mir fehlt
und immer wenn ich daran denk, packt mich die Angst,
denn dafür bin ich schon viel zu weit gegangen
und immer wenn ich daran denk, packt mich die Angst,
denn dafür bin ich schon viel zu weit gegangen
und immer wenn ich daran denk, packt mich die Angst,
denn dafür bin ich schon viel zu weit gegangen
und immer wenn ich daran denk, packt mich die Angst,
denn dafür bin ich schon viel zu weit gegangen

The role of social media during the recent uprisings.

I just seen a pretty good report about the role of social media about the recent ongoings throughout the northern african countries. But see for yourself:

lets hope, it will be an enhancement!

Since beginning this year, one thing is getting more and more clear each passing day:
By the end of this year, our world wont be the same.
I think this year, we will have to undergo some HUGE changes.

Because its not "just" northern africa protesting.
The downfall of the existing regimes will bring heavy changes to our western economy.

EGYPT was one of the biggest allies of the US, controlling the suez canal which is thegate to the asian world for europe and america. Its a stratecically important point

LYBIA, where the situation is getting more and more out of hand, is one of the biggest oil suppliers to the western world. So a change in the lybian politics will heavily change the price of oil, which we know is one of the most important resources of the US/European economy. Without oil, we are going to experience heavy problems. Prices for everything are going to get up in a big manner.
How an industrialized country works without the supply of oil, you can see if you just take a brief look to Northern Corea, since the US cut the oil supplies, the country is rotting more and more!

BAHRAIN, another strategically important point of the US, where several Marine batallions of the US Navy are staged, is at the brink of serious changes as well.
This means the USA are going to lose one more important ally and is going to lose influence on the world map once more.

The IRAN just was entering the suez canal with two battleships, heading towards SYRIA, trying to exploit the recent situation in northern africa to get out ot those uprisings with any kind of advantage.
What they are doing and what their objectives are is yet unclear.
But this will complicate the Crisis once more.
Yet the situations were "only" inner-lateral and every of the countries had to take care of their own people. But once, Iran is going to attack, the situation becomes uni-lateral and then, no one could predict the outcome!

And lets not forget the whole ISRAEL issue! Yet it has been silent around the whole issue. But Al Jazeera was realeasing just two months ago the so called "Palestine Papers" which contains 1,684 total documents which show the whole Middle-East Proces in another light. The whole process, yet happpened in secret, but the publishing of the Palestine papers reaveals some big surprises, concerning the proces. Still we have to wait, until the documents are going to get fully analyzed.
One thing i realized hile having a brief look over the papers: The whole situation is WAY MORE complicated as i ever thought it was. so i think no one, being not involved in the peace proces is not nearly qualified enough to develop his own opinion. Even if you go through the whole papers.

So let us all pray that the recent situations are all solved in the best, possible way, liberating the long supressed peoples all over northern africa, even if "WE" will have to face disadvantages out of this!

P.S.:
#1 If thats all not enough, the CHINESE government gets pretty much nervous about the recent worlds situation.

#2 The Resistance is not stopping at the borders of the U.S.! WISCONSIN is pretty much struggling for their rights as well!

A spectre is hauning Sinai - the spectre of freedom!

Lebanon is on the brink of creating a new government, one the population is asking for!

Egypt is still in unrest, though Mubarak is gone, nothing has changed, the reformation process is still going on.

While both countries are in the middle of their more or less peaceful changes, the spirit goes on further and further!

Lybia, is on the brink of escalating. No one really knows what exactly happens there and how people are thinking. People who are dependant on the government such as students and so on are being forced to demonstrate for the government, which is showed all over TV, so Ghadaffi tries to calm down the population by bribing people.

Bahrain is starting to get really chaotic at the moment, since police and military try to answer with violence, unrest is getting slowly out of hand.

Yemen and Iran are in an unclear state at the moment. One thing is sure: the Lebanese Revolution started to infect more and more people all over northern Africa/Arabia.
Yet already this revolution changed the face of the world nowaday, during the next year, we will see if this change whether has been good or bad for peoples freedom.

And one more thing: Since global awareness has been raising more and more since the Wikileaks incident and the momentary situation in Northern Africa, the word of "ANONYMOUS" is getting spread more and more widely.

For further information, look here:

Al Jazeera livestream - covers the recent developments 24/7
Anonymous News Network - Getting new information from the underground around the clock
We Are All Khaled Said - Point zero of the Egypt revolution. Still contains useful information about the government changing procedure
http://213.251.145.96/ - The recent adress of Wikileaks, constantly changing since they are on a game of cats and mouse with most of the worlds authorities
Interactive map including the latest twitter feeds on the arab uprisings

I cant wait!

♥

Yet music has always been the best way to express feelings in my opinion.

Well i think the songs speak for themselves!

To summarize it in a few words: ♥ Aku cinta dan kangen kamu tak terhingga, karuniaku ♥

Why should i care...?

Over the last weeks i have been intensively covering the news about Egypt. Okay i admitt it was a bit too much, because it began to affect my personal life too heavy. My exams i should have learned for, my time at all, my love life. Thats why i stepped on the break with that and i stopped covering the issue that intensively.

Also i came to know that some people started talking behind my back, its not like people couldnt talk to me, even critisizm is welcome, as long as it is at least a bit productive. And this one is!

So why they started talking behind my back that i am exaggerating over this issue, why not telling myself, so i see their point and i might step back in the intensivity. But if i dont know that other people see it this way, i cant change it.

For those who are too much of a coward to tell me directly, here is some thoughts leading me to my opinion and the coverage of the recent problemacy:

During this time, i often heard four words which made me really angry: Why should i care?

Well about the issue itself: I think this uprising, as well as the Lebanese movement, are really important for us. As Humans, evern a bit as europeans, you just should start looking into the past AND the future.

Right after Lebanon, Egyptians started demonstrating and demanding a change, Syria was quick to introduce changes.

A spectre is hauning Sinai - the spectre of freedom!

Clearly you feel the pan-arabic region uprising and fighting for their freedom, for their tomorrow, for their dignity. And this could be a big step towards a better future, but why should i care?

Why should i care the thousands who has been dieing for their, their childrens and their grandchildrens freedom? It doesnt make sense because i dont know them, right?

Well did i knew the french people back in 1789?

No i didnt, but still i love every single one of them who died in the streets of Paris. Because THEY are the reason, we live (relatively) free in the western world nowadays.

Without this movement, today wouldnt be closely to what it is recently. They have been clearing the path for our own freedom. People all over the world started to think why they should care about the frenchmen's cause? Yeah now some years later, we see why they should have done

And clearly i see paralels between the french revolution and the egypt liberty movement. They could be the way, the arab people start living their lives in freedom, the world would be one step closer to freedom, the world, WE LIVE IN could start to look a little bit more like Utopia.

So why should i care? I dont see any reason except having friends down there for those i started to be affraid every single day, since i heard about the uprising.

THIS! Is r´the reason why we should care and start showing solidary, for a hope of a better tomorrow! Maybe it wont be our tomorrow, or those of our children, but at some point, people will benefit from that, and this alone is worth fighting for!

I the left german movement i heard so many people talking about "Liebig 14", a squatted house. And when i read and heard opinions about that, they started to say that this is about freedom, about liberty, about the lack of governmental control. Wait!

Isnt that the same reasons why we should start to care about egypt? Are they different, just because they are arabs? Because they are Moslems?

Obviously they must be, else categories wouldnt have been introduced.

I think german leftist movement is solidary. But only with things which pays off for them directly!

So why should i care?

Why should i care freedom at all? Life is so much more convenient when i dont have to think about what i am going to do tomorrow, right? Life is so much more pleasure when someone is telling me what i like and what i dont like. And especially life is so joyful when i am exactly as everyone other, so why should i care?

Why should i care anything which is not concerning (directly) germany or our private lifes?

The answer is easy. back a few years, financia crisis showed us, and the one before that, and the one before THAT. Its because nowadays, you cant just see a single country. You always have to watch in how far every action will affect the other. Because one thing we learned out of the financial crisis, is that our world is like a spiders web, if you remove one string, the others start to get lose. And the more strings you will remove, the more lose the web ggets. So basically everything, going on everywhere affects us. If you cant see it now, you will see it another day, but everything is connected. Except some rainforest native tribes, they arent connected and they live their lives on their own, but do we want to live like that, just for being independant from the rest of the world?

We arethe vioce of freedom.

We are the voice of liberty!

We are everyone and no one!

We are Anonymous.

We are Legion.

We do not forgive.

We do not forget.

Solidarity is a Weapon.

Expect us!

The reason why i like you, is:

ღ I like the way you look.

ღ I like that you would spend even more time with me, when the day would have more hours.

ღ I like that there is no secrets between us.

ღ I like that right from the start, we acted as one soul.

ღ I like that finally came together, what is meant to be unite.

ღ I like that you are willing to give up everything, just to be with me for a year.

ღ I like that you always look stunning, even when you just woke up, you look incredible.

ღ I like the way your nose jiggles sometimes when you are sleeping.

ღ I like that i am just me, and you still like me! ♥

ღ I like that you have no problem to let everyone know about us.

ღ I like that you dont mind the age gap.

ღ I like that you love me even with all my faults.

ღ I like that we tell us everything, regardless if its good or not, regardless if it matters or not.

ღ I like that you are actually listening, not wait for your turn to talk.

ღ I like your life dreams, because they are mine. And mine are yours!

ღ I like that we already make every big decission together.

ღ I like that you know me from the inside, like no one else ever did or does.

ღ I like that there is NOTHING MORE important for you, than i am.

ღ I like the way you smile! ♥

ღ I like that you can read my mind just by looking at me.

ღ I like the way you make me smile.

ღ I like how your eyes are sparkling when you are happy.

ღ I like your beautiful vioce.

ღ I like that even the silence between us feels right and perfect, because it is time spent with you!

ღ I like you because you make me feel like i never felt before.

ღ I like that i can tell you anything and you never will be shocked.

ღ I like that you make time standing still, even if its fun.

ღ I like that you are never boring.

ღ I like that when you are with me, you never get bored.

ღ I like that we seem to be a perfect match.

ღ I like you because we can be silly together. Without shame! ♥

ღ I like that always when i think about you, life is perfect.

ღ I like that you lay aside your work just for spending time with me.

ღ I like you because you complete me!

ღ I like that nothing brings out the best of me, like your presence does.

ღ I like that since you came into my life, everything became so much brighter.

ღ I like that you always say, what i need to hear.

ღ I like that you are my ignition, my delight, my life, my biggest treasure and MY BEST FRIEND.

ღ I like that you know all my secrets and.

ღ I like that you are keeping them! ♥

ღ I like you because since you are on my side, i can take on the whole world, because i know you are on my side.

ღ I like that since i know you, my life just started on a new plane of existence.

ღ I like that no matter how affraid or excited i am, you manage to calm me down!

ღ I like that when i am with you, everything is fun.

ღ I like you because you are simply irresistible.

♥ With you, a second becomes a lifetime, a minute becomes a century and a day becomes eternity! ♥

♥ You are the light in my life, and you are (obviously) the inspiration. ♥

♥ I am sure there is a million more things, i havent mentioned here, because everyday there's something new that keep me loving you...♥

♥♥ AKU CINTA KAMU, KARUNIAKU ♥♥